The “Blockage”

I found out that Brijit.com has gone under from lack of funding. I haven’t used the service much in the last couple of months because, honestly, I just didn’t have the energy to read all the papers and fight with the other writers. I’m not a very competitive person, sadly. It was a nice bit of money when I did get one of my abstracts sold, though. I’m kind of sad to see them go.

This is just another example of why the whole “all eggs in one basket= bad” thing came about. If I had been working primarily on that, then I’d be screwed and would probably be crying in my beer right about now. Just like with Associated Content¹ when they decided they don’t want to really pay anymore (why not when so many people will submit for free?). When you’re working from home, or “making money online” (Ha!), then you’ve got to have a lot of options available to you. If you want that walk in tub then you’ve got to be able to hunt and peck until you succeed.

Yeah. Now that I think about it, I do sometimes feel like a chicken. Pecking at little seeds. But I’m optimistic that my ship will come in (what’s with all these cliches?) and I’ll be able to laugh in the faces of all those that doubted my abilities. Ha! Take that, naysayers! And a kick in the pants, too.

My health has been dragging lately. I’m hoping to feel a little bit better and be able to get some writing clips sent out. Dumb ol’ me didn’t save any for the resumé. No, I just write them up and send them out. This time I’m saving a copy so that I’ll just be able to attach the clip. One place was telling people in the WAHM.com forums that they were looking for bloggers, but when I applied they told me they weren’t. Yikes! Rejected. I’m pretty sure it was because of my clips. I had to link to a couple of my posts and, frankly, they’ve been lacking a lot of, um, umph! lately. Not impressive. But when I’m feeling as crappy as I’m feeling now, I just can’t get it out.

Depressed. In Pain. Grouchy. Ready to throw something at someone. That’s how I feel right now. I wonder if I can somehow manage to get those emotions out in a positive way? Yeah right. There was a specific word I was looking for right then and couldn’t find it. Why? Because I really, really suck when I’m sick. I’m just glad my browser has spellcheck, because I’d be dead in the water right now.

If any writers have any advice for how I can manage to improve my skillz through this time, I would greatly appreciate it. Otherwise, I think I’m just going to go take a nap until August.

1. No. They didn’t go under. [↩]