Non-Habit Forming?

My doctor recently prescribed a painkiller called “Ultram” (Tramadol) for me. He assured me that this medication wouldn’t bother me in the least and that it’s not habit forming. He said that it would help with my pain and there wouldn’t be any side effects should I run out of money and not be able to purchase any new. All those nice things that put me at ease.

The first pill I took didn’t do much for the pain. It did, though, make me slightly drunk. At least that’s what it felt like. I looked up the information online and found out that it is indeed moderately habit forming. I also found out that Tylenol seems to help kick start the medication.

Recently I came to the decision I was taking it too much. So, one day I decided to wean myself off. I didn’t take any pills that night. It was one of the worst nights I’ve ever spent- save for the night I was in labor. I couldn’t get comfortable and I felt like there were little creepy-crawlies under my skin. There wasn’t a whole lot of pain, just enough to make me agitated. I got up to go downstairs and try to sleep sitting up. It seemed like every time I was almost asleep I received a little shock to wake me up. I honestly couldn’t connect the lack of meds with the lack of sleep until it was almost morning. Then I was too mad to sleep.

My mother-in-law said this particular doctor was a pill pusher. I figured I could handle that. Afterall, I did refuse to take the SSRIs he tried to prescribe (I don’t do well with those kind of meds). I didn’t think he’d straight out lie to me to get me to take the medication. Now I’ve got to decide if I want to back to this guy or if I want to hunt yet again for another doctor.

From now on I take no medication until I’ve fully researched it myself. I don’t care what any doctor tells me.